Jessy

I cannot fathom how to write of her or about her.
There is no way I could put words together to describe her.
I have tried a million and one times but the words pale in comparison to her.
Words do her no justice.
Though i know i will fail i will try in attempt to share with you what i have been blessed with.
Her smile is like the starts on the darkest night of the year.
It lights up the town.
She is joyous and jovial.
Her eyes are a never ending tunnel into her soul.
The second you think you know every inch of that tunnel you find a new corridor.
She's waiting to be discovered over and over aging.
She is a never ending surprise; the good kind you wish would last a life time.
Her presence leaves you speechless.
You watch what you say around her for fear of sounding dumb.
Yet you are aware that with her, being dumb can be fun.
She has this sense of humor that no comedian can beat.
Around her ever person wears the biggest, brightest smile.
She is everyone's best friend but she only has a few.
The people she surrounds herself with are kind and gentle; reflections of herself if you please.
Fragmented portions of who she really is.
She is so much yet she is so small.
Small in the sense of stature.
She is the biggest person you will meet.
She puts the well being of others before her own.
Her heart is bigger, wider, and deeper than the grand canyon itself.
Her love encompasses everything and everyone she knows.
Her touch can give the dying one last breath of life.
Her voice could sweeten the most sour of them all.
The devil wouldn't dare go near her because he knows god is with her.
She is beyond perfection.
Everything about her is pure and genuine.
When she is gone you can only wish that she will come back sooner rather than later.
Her sleepy good morning voice and face is like hot chocolate on a cold winters day.
You wish never to fight with her
You wish to always keep her happy
To keep a smile upon her lips
Because you know inside she is a mixture of emotions
A deadly arsenal
Pandora's box
But there are a plethora of other reasons to keep her happy
You want her to feel nothing but joy
Give her a taste of what she gives you
You don't want her to feel the way you feel when she isn't around
The last thing on your mind is how to make her frown
But the first is always how to keep that smile around.
She loves with out limits and Lord knows she deserves more than i could every give her.
She deserves better than me,
Smarter than me,
Kinder than me,
Prettier than me,
She deserves the absolute best
But for some odd reason she chose me.
Of all the fish in the sea
she fell for the idiot who babbles on and on about her but still can't find the right words to describe her.
So I spend my nights reading, learning, and yearning
Trying to be good enough for her
But I know I never will be
And that's okay as long as she's happy with me.
She is my other half
My better half
I am so blessed because i know her
But I am wealthy because I love her
And she loves me.

perfectly me

I've learned how to let go
to be me.
i have learned so much in so little time.
i have spread my wings and learned to fly.
i left the detrimental life i was forced to live in.
i paved the way for myself.
i opened my eyes and saw what was there all along.
every wish i had ever made
every dream
all of it was always right in front of me.
i denied the truth
i was scared and blinded by fear.
fear of being outcast
fear of being unloved
fear of being unwanted
i was scared to be myself.
but ive broken the chains and i will never go back
i found the person who completes me
the one who makes my heart stop in love
while id always imagined it would be a boy
i was wrong
i have fallen madly in love with a woman
and she is everything ive ever wanted
ive accepted myself and what i couldnt have done before
i found myself and i learned who i truly am
while others may not approve
and may look down upon me
i will never again hide who i truly am
i am perfectly me and i am
perfectly a lesbian